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OcR FoRk
06-08-2007, 03:16 AM
Hello everyone! I have returned!

Well, its been a while since I posted. Let me basically tell you why. I've been really busy. I have only played Halo twice in the last 6 weeks. I really, really am considering quitting gaming altogether. I've never told anybody the real story of last year, but I think you guys deserve to know:

As some of you may know, I started playing Halo March 05. As soon as I started, I played all the time. I would stay up late on school nights to play, causing me to not get enough sleep, and to not do my homework. Besides affecting my grades, it also affected my athletic performance. Because I didn't get enough sleep, I wasn't at my best for baseball, which I played in high school. At the beginning of the season, around February, I was the number 1 pitcher. By the end of the season, in May, I definitely was not. Halo was always on my mind. During the summer, the majority of my time was spent playing fun customs. I pretty much spent about 50% of my time doing that.

The school year didn't get any better. I still was thinking about playing Halo all the time. Literally. I didn't care about a social life. I actually started getting good at it too, around October, when I started playing MLG, making me even more addicted.

When I got involved with clans, it was all over. ALL my free time was spent on either the forums, or on live. When baseball season started, I would have to play less, so I made up for it by staying up till 2 or 3 each morning and getting 4 hours of sleep. I slept some during class, but it wasn't enough. I started doing worse and worse in games. Eventually, I was so frustrated at my lack of success that I quit baseball, which I had played for 8 years. I quit it for Halo. Halo had become an addiction, and I had fallen victim to it.

Once I quit, things only got worse. I played more and more. I stopped excercizing. I stopped talking to people. As soon as summer hit, 95% of my day was dedicated to Halo. At least 12-14 hours per day. Noon-4 AM, taking occasional bathroom and eating breaks. It was pathetic. A month straight spent like this. A MONTH. I started playing less as time went on, but I was still addicted. I managed to stop playing when school hit back up...but I got back into it in November. From November to April, I started playing again(for OcR now). I lost the desire to play when I got fucked over prom nite.(Remember that? haha) And now that I reflect back on it, I'm actually afraid to play seriously ever again. I seriously will get addicted to this game rather easily.

Now I have worked out hard, and gotten in shape. I'm going out for the varsity team next year, seeing as how it will be my senior year. Halo will not fit in with this.

I have smoked, I have drank, but nothing is as addicting as gaming. Maybe its just me, but now you guys know why I have been hesitant to come back. I was considering quitting the clan, but I don't think I can. I love you guys wayyyy too much and I would miss you all.

Now that you know what's up, I will just say this: I can still help the clan. I can definitely post around the forums. I think I still have a lot of knowledge about the game that I could share. I just cannot be depended upon. That said, I think it would be best to remove me from Outcast Royale. I just won't be on at scheduled times anymore. That was one of the things that caused me to be more addicted last time. I will probably just play occasionally, and play mess around games, if that is cool. If you think I shouldn't do this, then I guess I can leave.

I really hope you guys understand. Again, I love you all.

-Fork

OcR Asians
06-08-2007, 03:47 AM
What a bummer man. Crazy how Halo sucked you in. Just stay away from Halo forever, or video games, at least until you are done with high school or have the ability to manage your time efficiently. I honestly think that you'd be able to play Halo still with all of your real life events, just be sure to manage your time between real life, and video games. You may not be the greatest at Halo, but at least it won't feel like a huge loss, but then again, gaming in reality at the moment is not much of a productivity. Next year is going to be really up to you to decide. I hate the loss of a great player, coughFoRKcough, but do what's best for you and if it is to leave gaming, you'll just be put in the Retired List.

No shame in that. =).

TheTrojanBunny
06-08-2007, 03:05 PM
I comepletely understand that man. It used to be that way with me and Runescape. I used to play it (before I had Halo and XBL) for an unholy amount of time. I made myself quit due to some grade issues, and I've had to do that more than once for Halo. Do try to play with us, but my personal suggestion for not getting sucked in, is to have a hobbie (baseball, or in my case, cello) and let that take priority over Halo, not the other way around. And like Asians said, wait until you can really manage your time more effectivley before starting up in full again.

Trojan
Wishes you luck and hopes that you will stay with us

ixi xizor ixi
06-08-2007, 03:13 PM
dude trust me i have lost a few friends over it during high school. i got them back and now that im graduated I can safely go back and buy a 360 and play halo 2 and buy and play Halo 3. i got sucked in and my friends were wanting to come over and when they did they just sat there and watched me play pretty much. trust me after your senoir year start playing again. you will get a job but jus when i had my old xbox.

Letthe
06-08-2007, 07:29 PM
If gaming is something that is keeping you from living your life then don't play and don't think about it. I for one love gaming and don't care too much for social activity. You will always have friends wherever you may go. Friends you have never met in real life may always be better.

OcR Prunk
06-08-2007, 07:48 PM
Dude halos not that great

Dont quit Fork just have some self control i only play when im bored. which is rite now cause all my friends abandond me 2night 8(

but ya if i see u on for more than 2 hours ill tell u to get ur ass up or soemthin

OcR FoRk
06-09-2007, 03:23 AM
Please do Prunk. Just for the record, I definitely won't be back for at least another week or so...and I won't be fully back. But at least I can post until then.

OcR McDohl
06-09-2007, 07:59 AM
Yeah Fork. Been there. Did the same thing you are doing. Its all good. Ifthats what you have to do, do it.

OcR Rhino
06-09-2007, 02:39 PM
Same here Fork I was really badly addicted as well. It got to the point where my wife said it was her or Halo so I naturally picked her and gave up gaming for 3 months and worked on saving my marriage. It really was not all to hard to do but I have started playing again a little bit and it is not as bad once you are not so involved with it. Every now and then the same feelings come back to where I can't control myself from stopping so I stop before it gets there. That and I only play when the wife is not around which is not very often. I was also to the point where I thought about Halo or the clan about 24/7 when I was not playing I was thinking about it or many times dreaming about it after playing every night. You just have to cut yourself off and decide yourself whether to start up again later. After 3 months I had no desire like I did but by that time no longer had the addiction as bad and was ready to play a little again. For me it was not as bad addiction to Halo but what I missed most was the clan members and talking to them daily which was tough. That was the main reason I came back but you can keep in touch in other ways like aim or on the site so keep in touch Fork I completely understand.

OcR Prunk
06-09-2007, 02:43 PM
Yeah Fork. Been there. Did the same thing you are doing. Its all good. Ifthats what you have to do, do it.


lol ur addictied to wow im gonna have to kick u off 2

which brings me to the next point ill be on WoW tongiht

TN GUNRUNNER
06-10-2007, 12:45 PM
srry to see you go but you have to do what you have to do

OcR FoRk
06-10-2007, 01:01 PM
srry to see you go but you have to do what you have to do

What are you talking about? I'm not leaving. I'm just not going to be as active...

TN GUNRUNNER
06-10-2007, 01:07 PM
thats wat i ment

OcR FoRk
06-14-2007, 06:23 PM
My bday is tomorrow, the 15th. Hooray for me! Gonna be 17 suckas! And school ended today.

Letthe
06-14-2007, 06:38 PM
AWESOME! School ended for me too!

OcR Prunk
06-14-2007, 07:36 PM
Me 3

Happy Bday fork

OcR Rhino
06-14-2007, 08:08 PM
Happy Bday pal. School ending should be a good enough gift. Big Senior next year lookout.

TN GUNRUNNER
06-14-2007, 08:49 PM
happy bday sucka

OcR FoRk
06-15-2007, 03:58 AM
Yes, school ended and it was great..and I am turning 17 in one minute. Hooray!

Hunter501
06-15-2007, 09:37 AM
Happy Birthday Fork. I'm out of school too.